Let Our Journey Begin

“The universe is big. It’s vast and complicated and ridiculous. And sometimes, very rarely, impossible things just happen and we call them miracles.”
— The Doctor, Season 5, Episode 12

This is a quote from my favorite tv show, Doctor Who.  It's about an alien that has a time machine/space ship that travels around the universe and saves it.  Along the way, he picks up various companions to travel with him. 

You are probably wondering what that has to do with adoption.  Maybe not much at all, but honestly, its the quote that I keep thinking about as we start this very early process in the adoption journey.  Our big world is becoming more complicated and ridiculous, but we are looking for the rare impossible thing that we call a miracle: our child. 

People all over have been asking us, "why not try IVF?" or "You haven't been trying long enough."  "You should keep trying."  "Are you giving up on having children of your own?" 

The frustrated, hurting woman inside my heart wants to cry, yell, and scream at those questions.  "You don't know what we have been going through the 9 months that we've been trying.  What's so wrong about adopting?  There are thousands of children that need parents, why can't we be one of them?" and so many other thoughts go through my head at those questions.  But I just smile and say that this is what we feel lead to do, and we have considered all our options, and we appreciate all their suggestions (And yes, sometimes inside my head, I stick my tongue out at them and give them a big mental raspberry).

The truth of the matter is, we feel lead to adopt.  

We are starting out small.  We are having to gather up at the funds to even start the adoption process, as well as continue to save and raise the money to continue through the process and finalize the adoption.  It is a lot of work, and it possibly will be a lot of money, but I think this miracle will be worth it. 

I truly believe that adoption is a miracle.  The impossible thing that will come into our ridiculous and complicated world.  We are just having to wait.  You can't force miracles.  They aren't something that can be push to happen (try as we might). 

So in the words of the 10th Doctor (And really, if you don't know Doctor Who, just ask Mike or me about it, and we will explain this better to you.), Allons-y!  The Brown family adoption journey awaits us!

Cana