So today is a day to partially celebrate. Why partially celebrate?
Because we got our official home study, completed and approved! So now we can legal start an adoption process in the state of SC.
It's awesome! It's amazing! It lifts a bit of stress off our shoulders, because this means that there is legal proof that we are approved to be parents.
And yet, I still want to cry in exhaustion and discouragement. We are facing a long journey, one that won't necessarily be finished in the next few months. I mean, it has been almost a year since we announced our intentions to adopt, and we only just got our homestudy completed.
I'm tired, and I'm hoping and praying that everything else in this process will go off without a hitch, but in reality, adoption doesn't always work the way our society portrays it. One of my friends, who has been trying to adopt for almost 10 years, compared adoption to be like being pregnant for years straight without a child. The up and downs, the stress (and this is not normal stress), and the constant what ifs of adoption will drive you crazy if you let it.
So today, we are going to celebrate a little. And then, later, when we finally reach the finish line, and hold our children in our arms, we will celebrate a lot!